To do neglected and misunderstood math homework is so hard when you'd much rather be reading or writing or drawing or...... well basically anything else, really. I finally just finished the Brisinger audiobook today and started another audiobook I bought at a yard sale this summer. And I feel so inspired to dust off my old writings and start on my Fletcher's story again. The plots, the characters, the epic tale.... they spin around in my head. But it's so easy to think, What's the point? Why even write when I never get the time and having everything else in my life screaming for my attention?
Because the story is screaming to be written. Albeit very faintly.... okay well, maybe more like pleading than screaming. My tale wants to be heard. Fletcher yearns for her life to unfurl on paper pages. Aarrow longs for the home he's never seen. I guess that's why.
But yet, all these things still seem cages in the confines of my mind.
Because real life hits. Math homework needs to be done, essays need to be written, my job needs attending, my guitar needs played.
At least I've managed to write a few good songs and poems lately.... it's a start.
So...! How to spend a black Friday. I took the day off, but I've still got a History test that I've been procrastinating... And I was going to do my algebra homework so I wouldn't be forced to do it over the weekend, but this chapter is story problems, and although I paid attention in class, I guess I still can't figure out how to do them right. *Sigh* And it's 4 in the afternoon. I hate doing school in the afternoon. And it'll be dark in an hour and a half...
Maybe I'll take a walk. I haven't been out in the great outdoors by choice much lately. Sometimes I go with Mom on her daily trips to take the dogs to the creek... but I don't really get time to unwind. Annie had originally planned to hang out with me today since we haven't seen eachother since Halloween, but the Nutcracker performance is in a week so she's painting the backdrop and selling tickets today. So much for that idea.
I had better darn well get to see that play, for all it's been taking her away from me! That girl owes me some quality time! >=(
*decides to go for a walk before it gets dark* I need a breather. I've been trapped in my room all day by my own choice! How vile of me.
I just want to have time again. To read. To write. To do whatever I want. No job to go to or homework to do or helping friends on their mail routes.... But ah, life goes on. Reality kicks in. The tide rises, and the tide falls. *coughreadthatpoemlastweekcough*
Life goes on. I guess I have to, too. Might as well enjoy it. ;)
*straps on snow boots*
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