Fireflies

No, not Owl City. ;)

Zo 'ere's a little zong I wrote...ya might want to zing it note vor note...
*cough* <_< >_>

Wrote this a few months ago for a very good friend of mine... It was a dark time in her life, and it was really really hard on both of us. She had this picture that she felt described her life at the time, just a handful of fireflies, that small spot of joy, that little bit of light to keep her going through this darkness.

(Although now I see it's a butterfly. <_< No wait...yeah there's some fireflies in there too. xD K, moving on...) 

We talked often, about the darkness, about the emptiness and desire to just stop this madness, but no other choice but to go on, numbly living each day by day... the world oblivious to everything inside. One night, I pointed out the hope in the picture. Something to the effect of, "... But look behind her. The sun is rising behind those mountains. She can't see it yet because all she can see are the fireflies, but it's coming. It's always darkest right before dawn." 

So, this is a song that came from brokenness. It's for her heart, but also from mine. The longing for the light, the feeling of the smiling of God's presence, yet so desperately wanting that joy and laughter, the divine dance. Waking up every morning, knowing you have to go through the day, no matter how much you don't want to. Knowing the Lord is with you, asking Him to stay, and wanting Him so much more. And resting in the hope, because you read the end of the book, and you know that we win the battle. =) It's a song of brokenness, but a song of the coming dawn.

So here it is...

(You have to download it to open it)

And here are the lyrics.

Time is running out

Nothing here is sound

and I don't know whether to laugh or cry

I feel you touch my heart

but life is still so hard

Sometimes I don't know why I even try

But then you take my hand, and whisper;

Just keep walking a little further

when you're weak, just look into my eyes

Don't doubt my love, for I am true

and when you fall I will always catch you

In your darkest place, the sun will rise

But until then, I'll give you fireflies

Broken hearts to mend

There's no break, but still I bend

Every morning's always just the same

I feel you when you make me smile

but please come, won't you stay a while?

Don't leave me here alone in my dark and shame

But then you take my hand and whisper

Just keep walking a little further

When you're weak, just look into my eyes

Don't doubt my love for I am true

And when you fall I will always catch you

In your darkest place, the sun will rise

But until then, I'll give you fireflies

Until then, I'll give you fireflies.

"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." ~Romans 5:5

-Rach